by Astrid Rangel
Hey Bobcats, sorry I’ve taken a while to write again, but my semester so far has been the craziest. I wish I had enough characters to say all that is going on but I’m pretty sure I would be here until next spring. All you have to know is that I am going bananas on the other end of this screen. I had financial aid problems, about which, by the way, my advice is to always go talk to them in person — believe me it works a lot more than calling.
I am taking 15 hours this semester and I thought it was going to be easier since I already did this last semester! HAHAHAHA (I’m laughing at myself because it is not the case). Here’s the update on the crazy and disturbed life of Astrid. I have two tests on THURSDAY, I have paper due next week and I work at least 20 hours a week if not more. Compared to some people, my level of stress is nothing, but hey it’s stress for me.
Another thing I wanted to talk about today is something that happened to me last week. It was honestly probably the worst week I’ve had here since last semester. My mood started deteriorating by the minute and I didn’t catch myself until I was in a hole I had dug without a way out. That hadn’t happened to me in so long I had forgotten how bad it felt when your own mind starts to play tricks on you. All week my mood worsen until I was literally crying myself to sleep and I had no idea why. It feel horrible. So if you’re at that point, take a moment and analyze what is going on. I did that and I realized that there’s so much more to everything going on in my life. The fact that I am here should be a testament that I can do a lot. Also, if you have a friend, talk to her or him. Talk to someone, maybe find a stranger and pour your heart out — it doesn’t matter what you do, just don’t hold it in. It feels a lot better once you get it out of your system and have a clear head. Please do stay away from unhealthy decisions. Yes, I know milk doesn’t cure anything, but neither does alcohol or drugs. Making decisions like that could change your life. I know, I know, so cliche, but we all know it’s true. Find something positive to do. Go to the counseling center, it is there for us so why not use it? Just don’t sit there and let it consume you because time doesn’t stop for anyone and by the time, you realize it so much could have gone by without you noticing.
To end on a positive note, I want to talk about the red and lovely holiday coming up called VALENTINE’S DAY. I personally ain’t such an advocate for it but it’s always good to have an excuse to eat a lot of chocolate at once. ‘Also just a little reminder, Valentine’s day isn’t just about having a partner and spending it with them. Valentine’s Day is about friendship and about all the people around who love you. I know sometimes it’s hard to remember that when you see everyone with their significant other but sometimes the best relationships aren’t with your boyfriend or girlfriend. I know that right now at this point in our lives we want someone to be there like that but this Valentine’s Day just remember that little fact. So if you do have someone, have fun, but also remember that there are other people around you who love you and same goes for people that don’t. Spend this day with your friends or whoever it is that you love.
Alright bobcats, I will say goodbye for now but I swear I will try my best to come back and write sooner. I just need to get over this madness. Have a good weekend and remember to stay safe. Much love! ❤🐾