by Alexus Moreno
I’m sure every college student and everyone in general goes through an obstacle in life that makes them completely stumped and a little lost. That is me right now. I’m not in a bad spot or anything … I’m just questioning a lot of things in my life at the moment. How am I going to accomplish my goals? How am I going to graduate college in four years? How am I going to overcome all these challenges that have been thrown at me this past month? How am I going to keep myself happy and everyone else around me? When I stop and think about it, it seems almost impossible to work towards these things all at once. Specifically because I don’t know the answer to any of these. All I know is that I am going to my best to get it done, no matter what.
Questioning the decisions you’ve already made and pathways you’ve already chosen can be both dangerous and life changing. I think it’s good to question what it is you’re doing. It allows you to look at your life from different perspectives and you really learn a lot about yourself. I think a big problem that a lot of us have (or at least we think it’s a problem) is that we have to know what we want to do with our lives, for the rest of our lives RIGHT NOW … right this second. I know I mention this a lot in my posts, but I think it is so important. Because we are told all our lives that college is where we find ourselves … so how are we suppose to decide what we want to do if we haven’t even learned everything about us? That’s what makes college an exciting experience … not knowing what’s in store for you.
I personally am not so much questioning what I want to do with my life, but more so questioning how I’m going to get where I want to be. When I look at the overview of these next four years, I get overwhelmed. I honestly don’t even know where to start to accomplish the things I want to accomplish. I don’t know if that’s a bad thing, but I am definitely searching for opportunities and ways to start myself off and I won’t stop searching until I find that gateway. It’s hard, because outside of school I have other things going on that are important and while I’m being challenged at school, my family back home is also facing a challenge, so at the moment everything just seems really really difficult. It’s like one big mess that can’t be cleaned up all at once. It has to be done little by little. And in these past couple of weeks, I’ve learned to accept that. Because usually I will try and do everything at one time, but you can’t do everything at once … especially if it’s important … it’s going to take work. Rushing it may cause a disaster.
I’m anxious to see how I will answer my own questions I have. I know it’ll take time but when I accomplish it, it will be worth it. It’s okay to not know what you want to do yet … explore your curiosity and if you do know what you want to do but don’t know how you’ll get there … be patient. Until then, explore new possibilities and have an open mind and most importantly, do what makes you happy. AND IT’S OCTOBER! which means HALLOWEEN and then Thanksgiving and then Christmas and the end of the fall semester! WHOOHOO! So that’s something to be really happy about. Make it a good one, Bobcats!