by Astrid Rangel
It’s Monday again, and as I start my fourth week of class, I can’t help but feel that time is going by a little bit too fast. It feels like just yesterday I was moving in to my new home. Yet at the same time, it feels like the girl I was before coming here has completely disappeared. I know that if I were to go back, everything would be completely different.
I can honestly say I never thought I’d love a place as much as I love being here. And yes, you might say that will change as I keep going through my years here, but for now, this is all I have. I know I have to make the best of it. Just this morning as I talked to my mom, I told her how I was sitting down talking to a friend eating Einstein Bagels and drinking coffee at 9 in the morning (which, by the way, is the best thing to do in your mornings … you guys really need to try it if you haven’t!). If someone would have told me this two or three months ago, I wouldn’t have believed them. “You are completely insane,” is what I would have said.
Yet now as I sit in the second floor of The Den while I drink my coffee and write to you guys, I know that even if it seems like nothing has changed, everything is actually different. Maybe I am the only one that feels this way, but that’s okay. Change has never been a obstacle for me; I feel like it’s something everyone needs to embrace.
One thing I really can’t deny is that I completely miss my family. It’s so different knowing you had so many people around you and then finding yourself going off by yourself. Crazy confession: I talk to my mom every day because I know leaving was hard for me but it was even harder for her to watch me go. Nevertheless, I know this is going to benefit me and my family in the future.
I guess what I am trying to say is that it’s okay to feel down and think about what it is that you are doing now. It’s okay to question what will come next for you. It’s okay to feel a little lost now and then. It’s okay to change your mind. It’s okay not to have your future figured out. It’s okay to think about the past and learn from it. It’s okay! Always look forward and try to improve yourself. That is what I do when I question things. Remember, it’s never a failure but a lesson to be learned.
I hope everyone has a great week!