Hard goodbyes

by Alexus Morena

I wish I could predict the future and know exactly what’s going to happen to me years from now or in a month, or in a week or even tomorrow. Where are all my friends gonna be? Who’s still going to be in my life? What am I going to accomplish? What family members will still be here? What bad things are going to happen to me? And most importantly what good things will happen?

The week before move-in day I made it a goal of mine to spend my days with as many of my loved ones as I could. Gratefully that’s exactly what I did, and I must say I had one of the best weeks I’ve had all summer. However, it made it that much harder to leave again.

My sister, some of my close friends, my dogs and my mom. Very hard to say goodbye once more ... already looking forward to seeing them all again!

My sister, some of my close friends, my dogs and my mom. Very hard to say goodbye once more … already looking forward to seeing them all again!

Wednesday night I went to watch a live band play with many of my friends at this really big park in Austin … and I sat there and thought how surreal everything was becoming. Yes, I was on campus before taking summer classes so I’ve experienced a little of what it’s like to leave, but this time was much much different. As I sat there, I couldn’t help but feel sad. I cared about all these people so much, as well as all the others I had spent my time with … and to leave them was a bit heartbreaking. It was heartbreaking because I don’t know what the future holds for them … for me … or for us.

Time is such a precious thing and sometimes it doesn’t work out quite well and that to me is scary. I could think of all these bad things of how my life could end up days and years from now. But I refuse to let those bad things happen, because when you care so much about life and others you will do anything to protect it. I’ve learned that if you just accept your life and fate and all things that happen, everything will fall into place. Accept everything while not taking pity on yourself and letting temporary things define you when unfortunate situations come your way (and believe me when I say the bad things are temporary), accept the good things while staying humble and be happy with the choice you made and things will work out.

I wish the best for my friends. No matter what, I will always and forever care for them, as well as my family; they are the light of my life and I hope they all will be there to watch me walk the stage four years from now. So, Class of 2018, I’m sure there are some people out there who share this same feeling and what I say to you is take what you can out of life and your time here. It will fly by so quickly, I know it. Not knowing what the future holds is scary, but so exciting at the same time. Set your mind on a goal and all the bad and good things that led up to it will be hard at some points, but it will make it that much more worth it.


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